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Well, suffice it to say things generally suck around here right now.  I wrote a HELL of a depressing post the other day, god, I think I might be committed if I actually posted it, but sometimes you just have to get the sorrow and grief OUT.  Be forewarned, those posts may be back, may contain a lot of sad shit, a lot of swearing (sorry mom, can't help it at these times), but it's real what can I say.  And it's a hell of a emotional roller coaster.

The hardest thing about this is not only ME dealing with this loss, but the dogs as well.  I can tell you for a fact that Ivy is a little lost soul right now.  She may not always look it, but when she hops out of the pen and whips her head around searching for her buddy, going back to the pen to see if he's still in there... oh god it rips my heart out every time I see that. It's so sad I've had to change our routine a bit to distract her.  :(

But instead of wallowing in the grief now, I'm going to try and bury it deep for awhile.  I need to enjoy the time I have with my parents while I'm on vacation.  They are en route and I couldn't be more excited after visiting them in Skagway today.   They are cruising up the inside passage and we'll meet in Fairbanks, where I vacation for a few days (hello ColdSpot Feeds!)!  Then back here to hang at the homestead - which will no doubt be awesome.  I can't leave the dog crew for too long, I need them right now.  And they need me... well they would tell you ALL THE TIME, but that's kind of exaggerating. :)

A huge thanks to all who wrote, called, emailed and commented... your thoughtful words help immensely.  Lots of you have been there, and thanks so much for sharing, re-living your losses has to be painful.

Moving on for today - here's some random pics!

Pooh Bear after a run, had to stick her face in the muddy banks of the creek. Did anyone else come out covered in mud? Ah... not so much.

My ceiling is slowly getting done and yay! No more looking at insulation all winter. The scaffolding is actually quite fun to have I might keep it. It's becoming a part of the place I've had it so damned long. AND. It's like your very own jungle gym IN THE HOUSE. What could be better?  Get bored? TV not working? Climb up to the ceiling!

I really really really really need a truck that is not enclosed.  Imagine driving home, a 45-minute drive at +15C with 400lbs of fish right behind you. YUM!!!!   Reason #756 why I am single.

Well, these guys certainly don't feel sorry for me. They were peeing themselves with excitement when they saw that load of ARCTIC CHAR FROM ICY WATERS.

Good ol' Kuna. I was laying on the ground forever trying to get the big bugger to actually look at me!  Why is it when I call them they always look away JUST as the picture is taken?? Argh! This was during a trail clearing day, he's slowing down at 12yrs old, so he now just hangs out by me as I'm chainsawing away and shoveling dirt into ruts.  We have some nice looking bush trails now!

Oh, and remind me to tell y'all about the "being charged by a bear" story later.  :)